Crazy long day – feel dead and drained and I’m in no way prepared for the mess that will be tomorrow. MA class (not done my reading!) then shifts in another store, as part of my new job! The need to keep balancing between love of learning and money to keep learning, is a hard journey to navigate through.
Sorry for rant. I’m just going to keep it sweet by posting some stuff I re-(discovered) on my phone. Not what I’m feeling right now, but I’m slowing getting over the emotions, anxiety and people-pleasing tendencies that kept me from sharing my words.
Title: Couplet (date: 06.10.15)
I love you, but I love me more,
in reality; its a falsified bore.
How can anyone be without another,
One will always live as Cartesian succour.
Title: Leaving. Learning. Life. Losing? (date: 28.09.15)
Emotional. Weeping This day
hits me. Travelling waiting my
breath deceives me. Sick of
this sickness that ails me. Sick
and… Tired of the wishing and
wanting that is snatched from
me. Backward facing travel in a
glittering life. How much
longer will u/I hide?
Tired of the wanting that is snatched from me.
Wishing against wishes that hopes weren’t constant dreams.