Sometimes you have to learn that you're working on something bigger than yourself. The world. And the ones who know and understand, are the ones who will stick around. After all what else do you need but that? My internal thoughts to myself.. as I struggle with shedding the overly-empathic and supportive self. I've helped [...]
Author: mkauser
Doctoral researcher looking into inter-connected lifeworlds and the continuation of inequalities. Those deep-seated, historical traumas and injustices that are woven more subtely here in the Imperial Metropole of the UK.
Early morning meandering thoughts on race, desire and Garvey
Marking difference begets miscommunication, which breeds misunderstanding and could lead to feelings of contempt, hatred and hurt. Yesterday's class on colour, difference, browning and Jamaica was great and very, very interesting, not least of all because of a small breakout session as we discussed with our peers the question ; 'How is mixing problematic in [...]
What did Eve-Hawaa feel..
They look for signs where there are not, Fate in the fateless, I would rather spend a day in supposed sin, Then allow an eternity in which we all Explained our misdeed. What can you not see? This is me not creating a "wrong" destiny. There is some pattern here emerging, This is life washed [...]
The FT Piss me off.. too ill for this shit.
As a born saver; I barely managed to saved my regular £200 a month for the past few years, on my crappy £400 p/m jobs or the old GAA at a whopping £20K. Regularly needing to dip into it, due the cost of living and expenses that is just not being regulated! Now [...]
Dating sites and religion: A quick night-time thought
Faith-based dating sites, how is gender performed and configured on these sites? Like do women of faith behave a certain way? or men of faith? How are communications and negotiations of faith or any sort of spirituality discussed? Is it even? Frankly?How is religion a central tenet, to what extent is it? Are interfaith dialogues [...]
Life so far… Returning to the place of my awakening construction
So I have returned to snowy Yorkshire after a rollercoaster 3 1/2 day, 3 night return to London. No matter what is said by people from all walks of life about this place and how many times I leave, or come to the realisation that this place just isn't for me, right now, for many, [...]
Love stories
Oh! To get lost in others' stories again, of love and loss constantly reimagined, reasons to feel, empathy to seep, Through to my very bones, As I pictures me in that love, that Home, tears flutter under these external shutters, layered over a simmering flame, that only finds written reasons to feel again, weeping inconsolably, [...]
#StartupSunday
Sunday will be the day of new starts. I will post-up a new idea, either from my sketchbook or notebook for a new project that I hope to work on in the up-coming week or near future. Though I will it to be the week coming, rather than some imagined future day that never seems [...]
Let’s keep playing..
Longing and regrets, intermingled with love and trust, that Hope, that Touch, just you, just me, playing at Us, Why do games end? On whose score do we depend? Fickleness is staying to speed, Allowing the screen to freeze, Afraid of testing our frailties, Surely bravery is in accomplishing all feats. Learning to trust instinct, [...]
Poem from 13th of Dec
Publishing an unknown, unremembered draft to re-vitalise my dearthful creativity. Or rather sharing of said creativity; Dragged back to this hellhole, no hope for life, no light, fizzling, sizzling smiles that belie hardened minds, no hearts that present all that is fine, all withered, all cried, all die.
Mariam Kauser 